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Today
Hi all.
I am finally starting to feel more energetic healthwise.
I went to gym yesterday & I think I should be walking everyday (inside or outside) but don't seem to get that in yet, lol.
I am getting a room in Jupiter tomorrow. I kinda messed up in that I only had one booked call & a few inquiries who didn't have references, etc so I cancelled on my regular guy thinking I would just stay home. Well the next day another old client of mine calls who is in Jupiter so basically I am going to see him at my hotel.
I tried to get the other one back but he is going golfing he said. Oh well my timing is always off. At least I have something planned and mabey today I will get another booked.
I am wanting to work Friday morning before I check out & I never do that.
I need to extend my hours & I think once I get a better routine (my life has been so routineless) that I will be able to function better at say 10 am & be ready to work, etc.
I didn't get up until 9:30 today but I fell asleep on couch at like 12 am and did that waking at 3 am thing I do where I then go to bed in my room. So by the time I prepared for bed about 3:30. I was tired.
It goes by fast at that hour.
I also feel like I am ready to take new pics soon. My legs are still too skinny but my upper body looks better I think.
My body went through some changes & it changed the way I looked.
Stopping eating wheat, starches, sugars and basically not eating when you are hungry will do that. But I had to/have to sometimes for my health.
For me anyways, I am dying to gain weight. But still not sure of the right foods for me. Even after all this time.
I am learning all about the mind thoughts & self acceptance.
I have to stop judging so much & worrying what other think about me, even relatives, etc.
Then I feel so much better.
Have a great day!
:) Sara
 
explanation
Just to clarify, I am not such a good poster.
I think someone thought I meant that my ex-dating guy was paying me for our personal dates. This was not the case.
I really did and do still care about him.
Just wanted to make that clear.
As soon as we started dating, that biz exchange ended.
In the past when I have dated guys for example the married guy, he would pay me like 500 but I would stay all night & go to dinner, breakfast etc. He knew I needed his business then.
So he was getting a deal, lol.
He had plenty of money to go around elsewhere & it did.
I know I was over-reacting other night but just vented here.
I just felt like I wanted to explain that better.
:) Sara
Sunday
I am sad cause i got involved recently with someone who was a client.
The last one I dated previously, well he turned out to be married. So of course I ended it right away. He really broke my spirit as I had tried not getting involved for months telling him that it never works out. He said he was divorced 3 times, but in reality he was only married once & still is I am sure. He was so romantic too which I really miss out on.
This was like 2 years ago or so. I also found out he was seeing many other escorts & of course lying to me. He wrote many reviews (while we were together) & had other aliases, at least one that I know of.
Anyways, I can't help that I am hurt that my new BF is still looking at escorts, message boards, etc.
I know where this is heading. Been there done that. Even before the married guy. The single clients that I've dated, as soon as I stopped charging them, they ended up paying to see other gals.
Why did I even bother with this guy?
I need to stay single or meet a guy outside of this & lie about what I do. Sad but true. Had to learn the hard way. Of course that won't stop them from looking for escorts if they choose to.
I am going to miss him. But I don't see this relationship going anywhere from here.
Guess I needed another reality check.
Okay I am officially never ever dating a client again.
It just does not work out for me.
Funny thing is I didn't think he was all into that so much.
Okay tomorrow will be better day.
:) Sara
Hi all
Hey everyone. I am debating if I should go to jacuzzi tonight. I think I am going to.
I had some guy call earlier & ask some questions, spunded okay at first & then 'do you speak Greek'. I am always taken aback by those questions. I mean is that really necessary? Needless to say, that phone call ended, lol.
Oh well. I am a little bummer that the Boy George concert may be cancelled due to his getting into trouble awhile ago for something bad.
I really want to go. I love 80's music.
And I got the tickets already.
I am dying to go to another show already. Mabey my mom wants to.
Sometimes musicals get on my nerves like if I am watching a movie & am not really in the mood but I love going to live shows like Cats, Mamma Mia, etc. I want to see Rent sooo bad. I love the songs.
One time I went to Romeo & Juliet but it was in French & it was long. My client wanted to leave early & we did.
I still want to go to a ballet someday.
Okay I guess I better motivate.
:) Sara
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