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I wanna be an O.P.I. Nail Polish Namer!!!
I've figured out what I wanna be when I grow up! Finally!
I LOVE this nail polish company, been a customer for years. My collection is small because I threw out all my old nail polish's last summer and started over, they were soooo old. Here's the ones I have, I added a couple ideas of my own at the end, hee-hee-hee~
"Don't wine, yukon do it" Good for winter~
"Cara Mia Crimson"
"Glacier Bay Blues" Very different, you have to be in that kind of mood~ Seasonal, great for fall~
"Paint your Toron Toes Rose"
"Peru B Ruby" One of my Fav's~
"La-pazatively Hot" GREAT on toes! (I have it on mine now)
"It's all Greek to me" No comment~
"I'm not Really a Waitress" Love it~
"Cha Ching Cherry" Beautiful color~
"A-Rose at Dawn...Broke by Noon" Ha! Story of my life~ One of my Fav's~
"My Throne for a Cranberry Scone"
"Kinky in Helsinki" Beautiful color~
"California Raspberry"
"Pompeii Purple"
"Dear Valley Spice" Fall/Winter~
"Mother Road Rose" Pretty Mauve~
"Not so Bora-Bora-ing Pink" Good for spring weddings~
"Your Such A Kabuki Queen" New! Great for spring/summer, while your tan~
And how do I know this stupid stuff?
Because I finally learned to put a note in my wallet with the names so I'd quit buying duplicates!!!
MY ideas~
"Do You BBBJDTTCUCWMFT?" (Bare back blow job deep throat to completion uncovered while my friend tapes)
"I'm Not Really A Hooker"
"Girls Gone Wild My Ass"
"My "To-Do" List"
"So I slept with your husband, and your Point Is?"
Damn it! I had all these cute ideas and now I've gone brain dead! Total train derailment, lol~
Ah well, definitely time for bed.
I hate Mondays! But I love the song! ;)
Take care everybody, be safe!
Smooches,
Roxy :)
Had a gagger...it was a close one.
I needed two days off just to get over this, and yet, I probably never fully will.
Met with a gentleman earlier this week at his hotel room, very nice man, a little reserved, but polite none the less. I brought wine, he had scheduled a longer get-together, (3 hr's.)so I brought my bag of goodies and looked forward to a fun-filled evening.
Never being one to judge a person by their looks, but by who they are on the inside, I looked beyond the fact that he was easily 300lbs., if not 350lbs. I have been with larger men before, never been a real problem, sometimes you have to do things a little differently, but never a problem.
While changing in the bathroom, I noticed, and silently thanked God, obvious signs of him recently taking a shower. It is so important that larger people clean themselves often, and thoroughly, when visiting with a companion, this is the polite thing to do.
To the average size gentlemen, no, I don't consider the fact that you showered that morning at 6:30am/7am, went to work, drove a couple hours, and now at 3pm. you feel your "good" because you "just showered" this morning. And again, that is regarding an averaged sized man.
With larger sized gentlemen, while visiting with a provider, it is IMPERATIVE that you shower right before the actual meeting. No provider is going to mind you jumping in to "freshen up" right before things get started, trust me, none will mind. More than likely the opposite, they will be grateful and remember you in a much better light.
I exit the bathroom, changed, and looking forward to enjoying some fun time~
Putting it right out there bluntly, I was giving him oral, I realize that he can't see me, nor I him, due to his large size, which ended up being a good thing, a very good thing.
Things were going ok, just ok, his legs were straight down, I was arranging my body to try to keep his legs in that position, I was already beginning to have a hard time, breathing out my mouth, then not breathing at all, etc. I definitely did not want him to bend his knees, bringing his legs up a bit, thus, spreading them open. I mean, I couldn't hardly go for the balls, quick lick, up for air, quick lick, up for air. After a bit, I tried to work my way up and get into something else, but no, that "felt too good", "keep doing that" he plead. Always wanting to provide that pleasure, I head back down...
Ladies, I tried, I really did. You would have been proud. But as I continued to please, still with my body trying to keep him in position, it happened. He got excited, bucked me up, brought his legs up and open, and I got the smell of a lifetime, gaggggggged, and gaggggggged, feeling that "I'm gonna puke" feeling, (it was coming up my throat), I jumped up and went to the bathroom to regain my composure. He hadn't yet came, I told him I needed a couple minutes to re-group. Once back, I completed the task via a different method.
Being the fact that this was the first cup served, I figured he would want another. I recommended he wash up, he declined stating the towel and washrag I handed him immediately after the first round cleaned him sufficently.
Feeling a little, well, I don't know, I guess just sick, I bought as much time as I could talking, with about 30 minutes left, (yes, I was counting the minutes, you bet),I finshed him off with a hj. He seemed happy. I couldn't get out of there fast enough, home, showered, and prepared for nightmares. Fortunately, have had none,... yet.
The next day, I was still physically sick, took day off.
Next day, (today), better, but still off.
Probably will dive back in tomorrow or Friday.
I'm not kidding, that was the worst experience of that kind I have ever encountered. And I will never go through that again, never. I will politely decline first and walk out before going through that.
It brought a question to mind, at what point do we draw the line and decline the gentleman? I know it's on an individual basis. However, would that be considered hypocritical? lol. I mean, that's why some are paying us, because they couldn't get it otherwise, but at what point is there not even money in the world???
Gagging in Wisconsin~
Roxy :)
Hangin' in there and thankful...
for the wonderful women in my life such as Sweet Kitty, Enchanting Olivia, Daphne, and of course, always, my sweetpea Vee, :)
Thank you all for your tips and advice, kind words, and oh so much more, I'm lucky to have you in my life, you keep me sane when I'm slipping... lol~
Thank you to everyone else that privately e-mailed as well, I will never forget the amount of love and support I have received, it's been unbelieveable. Thank You!!!
I am getting the book that Enchanting Olivia recommended, it sounds exactly like what we/I need.
I'm hanging in there, respecting her choices and giving her space. Her father said she has mentioned that she want's to "see me ONE more time just to vent" and then that's it, never see me again. And that's ok, that's ok for now. I probably was one of the worst moms' out there, God knows I didn't have a role model, but all I did was love her, I'm sure I said the wrong things at times, embarrassed her, etc. But above all else, I loved her, to no end. My saying to her has always been, "nothing you confess can make me love you less" so she can vent whenever she's ready, whatever she say's, it won't make me love her any less. She is also in a very confusing bi-sexual relationship with another girl who is going through a living hell with her parents as well, lots of confusion floating around, and sometimes you just got to sit back and let the cards fall where they may.
I just wish it didn't hurt so much, and that we, as parents, could protect them, forever.
Ah yes, can we say, "having a hard time letting go Roxy?" lol. Yep, I am, I'll never fully let go, I'm her mom, always have been, always will be.
Thank you again,
much love to you all,
Roxy :)
And to all those wonderful ladies out there who are mothers, and grandmothers, and sisters, and aunts, and friends,...
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
Have a wonderful day~
(I'm gonna kick back, eat ice cream, and watch lot's of movies with Brad Pitt and my future husband, Johnny Depp.) Mmmmmmmm! Damn yummy!
My daughter told... now what do I do???
The plot thickens...
My daughter, she's 15 and a half yr's. old, and some of you know we've been recently having problems, big problems.
Her last stay with me lasted 3 days and she has since resided at her father's house. I have not heard from her, nor seen her, in a week.
I knew that she has had an idea of what I do for the last couple of years, two years at the most, and that was only because she was snooping, coming up behind my back while I was on the computer, etc. So finally I had to tell her something, I mean, how it originally came out was, she seen me looking at sites like bigdoggie, websites, etc. and, as we all know, there is pictures, banners, etc. of women all around on the sites, in the corners, banners, just all over, while I'm reading what's on the site, she was thinking I was looking at girls. So one day she blurts out, "mom, are you gay?" I laughed and said "What? no, why do you ask?, where did you get that from?" to which she replied, "I've seen you looking at women on the computer". I'm thinking oh shit, now what do I say, I told her that I was in the adult marketing business and brought girls in from out of state to do shows at local dance clubs, so I had to check them out first on the computer before I decided if they would work out or not, and I had to see if the guys thought they were pretty, etc. That was the first lie, that worked for about 6, maybe 9 months. Then she started asking where I was going when I was all dressed up, more questions... I told her I had meetings with clients scheduling appt's. with the women I booked. That worked for another maybe 4 months, etc. Finally she just put two and two together, snooped on the computer, seen my sites, heard the name "Roxy" too many times and knew. She just fucking knew. So finally I came out and told her, yes, I date men for companionship, I would tell her fun things we would do like when I went and seen Bruce Springsteen in concert at Miller Stadium, stuff like that so she would think that I was actually just going out on dates with men who needed a partner, our bills were getting paid, I was able to leave a very abusive relationship with a man that my daughter hated, so that made her happy, I mean, she really didn't seem to mind and understood. However, I told her that NO ONE, not grandma, school, her dad, NO ONE can ever know because people don't think what I do is right, even though it was my decision to make, etc. She agreed and we lived together in harmony, for a long time, she was fine, so it seemed...
Now, last week, (the last time I seen or talked to her), we're sitting in her counselors office, fighting, she's acting out, skipping, smoking pot (I had just found out),just out of control shit, say's she hates me, and on and on. Then we 're just sitting there, me, her, and her counselor, and my daughter just gives me this evil look and says out real loud, "Well, my mom is a prostitute!". I kept my cool, and said "No, honey, I was an ESCORT, and not anymore" I don't think the counselor knew what to think, although I will give her credit, the lady came right back with "well, do you think your mother may have had to make some sacrifices?" and my daughter said nothing. The subject was quickly changed and we all moved on. It was obvious that she was doing it for shock effect.
Now she has proceeded to tell her dad, (my ex-husband), all her friends, some of their parents now know, basically anyone who will listen. My ex-husband yelled at me on the phone today, "Christ! She told me you are a fucking prostitute!" I just let him yell and never reacted nor answered, nor denied.
I have yet to see her, or talk to her alone since she first started telling people. She knows my stage name, "Roxy", probably the names of some of the boards I'm on, like bigdoggie, etc. I'm sure she could look me up on her dad's computer and show others so they will know she's not lying, i.e. my cell phone number in my ad's, website, etc.
So I ask all of you, my friends, what would you do? Should I quit? Should I tell people that I am an escort? What can they actually do about it? The thing is, I'm not ashamed of what I do. I'm not. I'd tell anyone that that is what I do for a living. I'm a courtesan. A provider/ a companion/ and more often than not, a therapist.
I'm not a whore, or a slut. I'm not cheap, I know who I'm with, I have doctors fly in on their private planes from Chicago to see me, I have attorneys that have asked me to go with them on vacations to beautiful destinations, bankers, consultants, CEO's, and some clientele that I cannot even mention. Hmmm, I wonder how many women have walked out of a bar with a guy and didn't know anything about the guy their with, not even his last name, yet I know so much about who I'm with. Which way is better? I know, I know, I'm preaching to the chorus here, all of you understand and I don't have to defend myself here. But damn it! When the hell will people wake up???
ANY advice would be greatly appreciated as I really can't talk about this to anyone else.
Thank you for listening~ Sorry to vent.
Yeah, and get this, even though she told everyone, I don't care about that, I'm not mad at her, absolutely not. But this does get me, she has had me so upset all week over leaving and going to her dad's. I've been crying almost constantly, (just ask my last appt., Thank God he was a sweetheart), can't eat, can't sleep, praying she's okay, etc. And she doesn't even miss me, doesn't want to talk to me, nothing, her dad said "she's doing great!" She's still claiming to hate me, forever.
And next Sunday, is... Mother's Day.
I don't know how I'll get through that day~
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