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Gonna Try Outcalls
Well hopefully I won't have to move back to my condo in Glendale, which means I'll be staying my butt in Mesa and if so I won't hold InCall
but
I am going to try to start doing Outcalls, to most places in Arizona particularly the East Valley: Scottsdale, Mesa, Chandler, Phoenix, but I'm not opposed to the West Valley as well such as Glendale
Just let me know when and where, give me 24 hours, I'll be there
Website: http://www.vickinicole.com
 
42% of black women have never been married , 70% are single, are we the UNLOVED and UNWANTED?
Someone besides John Mayer please answer.
It's 2am and I am talking to my brother on the phone;
he says, first of all, as a big woman I have to realize that no one but a pervert is going to want me, no decent man is going to want to marry me
(i said I thought all men were perverts, but he said that isn't true)
men will look at me and assume I have low self esteem (I do) and I will take care of them (I will) because I am so desperate, he says I need to look in the mirror and realize that at my size I have to settle for what I can get
he says people who say its ok to be my size do not care about me
he says you can tell by how my life has gone according to my weight , as I've gotten fatter, less men have talked to me
he says when a GOOD man looks at me, he thinks to himself; "she does not care about herself, she probably has a nasty home, she is lazy"
I asked why is it that men will pay will be with me, but they won't date me.
Men tell me I am their fantasy, but they won't date me.
He said it's because these men see me as a novelty or a toy, but they would never be with me in real life. This is their fetish. I am just a fetish. People don't do fetishes all the time. They like to pay for their fetishes and are freaks and wierdos.
he says I am a stupid American if I think differently
Oh yea, and he asked what I planned to do about my weight. I told him I plan to first marry any sick pervert loser who likes fat chicks. Then I will finish college, get a good job with health insurance, use that health insurance to get weight loss surgery.
He said that what if my husband leaves me cause I lose weight.
I said I didn't care, I just need a husband for right now so that I can have sex (I only have sex with someone I've been married to). In 7 years if he wants to leave me, that's fine I'll be skinny with a good job so it should supposedly, according to his logic, be easier for me to find a new husband. Nevermind that I'll be in my forties.
Oh yea and I told him an example I have of a friend who was almost 400 lbs, and she found a husband and had a baby. He said that I never know what kinds of stuff she has to put up with from her husband.
what about the other percentages of black women who can't find a decent man of any race or age to marry?
what are men's excuses for not being with them?
Website: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bJGMAhWpDF8
Wanting Weight Loss Surgery
It feels like all my friends have had Weight Loss Surgery and they all say it's the best thing they ever did
Rose got it last March I think, she has lost over 120 lbs.
Kelly got it 8 months ago and has lost over 140 lbs
True got it 2 years ago and lost and kept off 200 lbs
Nikki got it the same time as Rose and lost alot of weight
Kelly has a great youtube channel: http://www.youtube.com/smashed2k
where you can follow her weight loss progress after surgery
The reason I started doing bodyrubs again is cause i wanted to try to save up for surgery, but it's not going so well. I've only had 2 clients so far, yet I spent $500 on advertising and hotels.
I got alot of calls but they all sound scary, lots of people with accents, which worries me cause I feel like I can't communicate my restrictions to them. I try to tell people to go to my website, but I rarely get appointments from there. So I dunno if I will continue the BodY Rubs.
I'm trying to focus on school, but my depression overwhelms me, I look in the mirror and see my reflection and i just feel like it's going to take a miracle to lose all this weight
I really want to get surgery but no money and no insurance
It's hard explaining my longing for the surgery to most people, cause they go into rants about how I should do it through diet and exercise. But the reason people get surgery is because they were unable to keep it off through diet and exercise.
Everyone who has ever gotten WLS has tried diet and exercise first.
Diet and exercise is a torturous process for some people and alot of overweight people can't continue it indefinitely. I'm one of those people. I have gained and lost weight thru diet and exercise more times than i can explain, and all I've learned is that every time I lose the weight, I gain back double. It's a lifetime commitment I am not willing to make without surgery.
I had public insurance, that they just kicked me off
they said my income is too high
even though i dont have a job and get less than $1000 a month through unemployment.
i might move back to boston after i graduate because Kelly says 85% of the people in her WLS supprt group are in mass health, the public Massachusetts health insurance program.
My big obstacle is I still own a condo here in Arizona and even though i have a friend renting it out right now, I wouldn't want to leave it. My friend can't even cover the full mortgage, not to mention HOA fees. I really want to sell it.
I wish I could do some investment upgrades to it , sell it for a small profit and use that income for the surgery....
but i bought it for 75,000 and now its worth like 40,000
yea it sucks
i had blue cross when i had my job last year
i started the path to getting surgery and started all my doctor appointments
did the sleep study
everything
then they told my surgeon that they didnt cover it
really upset me
after 6 months of me going through all the psychologist and Dr. appointments Blue Cross told my surgeon that they didn't cover it anymore
i would be happy to lose just 100 lbs
Kelly was 325, now she's 190 , I weigh around 314 right now
True was over 500
so she has kept 200 lbs off
she is around 300 lbs now
she doesn't really eat healthily and she doesn't exercise at all, so its amazing that she has kept 200 off
and she never went for any follow up care cause she doesnt have insurance
and she still kept off 200 lbs
Rose was almost 400 pounds and now she is in the low 200's lbs. now
Yea, i really want Lap Band surgery bad, i wanted to try to save up to go to Mexico to get it by this dr. ariel ortiz, I'd be too nervous about getting gastic bypass in mexico though, so I'd stick with lap band. The cash price for lap band in mexico is under $7000
im trying to convinve some guys to marry me so i can get on their insurance and get the surgery here, lol
i am desperate for it
i've been trying to find a foreigner to pay me for marriage
so hard to find
if you know anyone , send them my way
if you talk to one, tell them you know a girl willing to do it for $7000
but if its a american, i will do it just for their health insruance
especially someone in the military
they have good health insurance i heard
All Tied Up
Today I was able to score an amazing resort suite in Scottsdale.
Totally gorgeous, including a 1 bedroom suite, living room, kitchen, garden jacuzzi tub in the huge bathroom.
Coincedently, I already had a photo shoot scheduled today, so this location was perfect.
I was ALL TIED UP for part of my photo shoot, as you can see.
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