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Oh What Slippery Slopes!
Well where to start? I have been out of pocket for going on four years. When things go down they go way down. I guess I will start with the beginning of the end. A little while after my last blog entry things were well. Work was well. Money was good...not great but I was making it. Somewhere along the line my work caught up with me and I got into a little trouble for what I do...30 days worth of trouble. I had my mother maintain my finances and bills. So when I got out I could just pick up where I left off to recoup for the 30 days of unemplyment. Well upon release and viewing my bank statement mom pretty much wiped me out for around 5 grand....my complete savvings. In short I lost everything I own and my mother would no longer have anything to do with me.
I sold off what I could to try to make it but I was to far gone. People tell me bad things happen to me because of what I do. I do not agree with that. I love what I do. I miss doing what I do passionately. When I survived Hurricane Katrina the people who took care of me were those of my prefession and the wonderful gentlemen we see. I will never turn my back on the community that took care of me.
I want you all to know this is not the end for Amaya Lovely. This is a new beginning. I am survivor. I am a warrior. I will beat this too. I have missed you all. It will take awhile to get back on my game. I will get everything back. I will beat this slip.
I will blog again soon!
Always, Amaya Lovely
Playing Catch Up!
Jax is still the same but it's not so bad now. I'm getting used to it I guess. I still find it kind of boring but now that I am taking online courses I have been to busy to notice how boring it. I go out occasionally to a movie but other than I keep to myself. I guess I am feeling more focused. Right now work and school are my top priorities.
I'm hoping at some point I will be able to travel. I think that would be cool. Plus I really need to get back to NOLA. I get e mails still from regs even though I haven't been back since Katrina. I just don't feel ready to face it and not to mention alone. I'm not sure what my reaction would be and on the off chance I lose it. I shouldn't be alone.
I have been feeling much better and less depressed lately. I finally found a stress reliever that works for me. I go to the gun range and pop off a few rounds. I am so serious. It's like therapy for me anyway. I used to be terrified of gun wouldn't touch one. But someone suggested I thought what the hell. I went and I loved it. It's like wow. The weird thing is I am good at it.
I have been trying to talk Ashley into coming Florida. She could some rays on her copper tone booty. I need to start spending more time around people before I end up a recluse. I make friends but they all end up being users or back stabbers. And I just don't need that in my life. I'd rather be alone.
I have really gotten back into my horror collecting. I stopped for a long time. I couldn't afford it. But now things I straightening I can indulge in a little. I posted a pic of one of my latest editions. Well maybe not latest I got it around Halloween. of last year. I probably wouldn't have bought knowing I was going to be moving the following month but what can you do. Suck it up and move on. I have attached a pic. Yea it is 6 foot Leatherface. I get asked a lot about how my clients react. Most are pretty cool and like the fact I am unique. I also thought if I got psycho he would seriously have to consider if I might be more psycho than him even though I am harmless.
Well I was bored thought I would make a little update. I miss everyone. I'm going to start back blogging more. I really miss it.
Just some Simple Random Thoughts!
Things have been in a whirl wind since I started school. I don't feel like I have time for anything else even though its just part time. It's kinda cool though my mind is focusing on something else besides all the tragedies. I am off all most all medication for post traumatic stress after Katrina. I still take anti anxiety for panic attacks.
I am purging again getting rid of stuff not being used. I have so much stuff. It's hard to believe I have accumulated so much stuff in such a short period of time. I'm starting to feel cluttered again and I hate that feeling. Clutter around the house also tends to bring clutter to the mind. So I am working things out right now.
On a fun note and I know I am the only person who cares but in Novemeber they had Horrorfest for weekend in limited theaters. They called Horrorfest 8 films to die for If you haven't checked them out already look for the Horrorfest movies. They are awesome..well most of them anyway. The one they did not release with the set was by far the worse one. My favorites are in the order as follows The Gravedancers, Unrest, Dark Ride, Wicked Little Things, The Hamitons, and Penny Dreadful. I'm not sure about Reincarnation as I have not watched that one yet. I have to be in the right frame of mind for a foreign movie.
I went to see The Reaping. I was not impressed at all. I was disappointed. I love Dark Castle. I plan to go see Grindhouse. It only grossed 11 million opening weekend. I think their were complaints about it being to long. People when do we ever get to see two for one. Christ The Titanic was 3 hours long and it was one movie. So I don't see what the big deal is. I'm so glad Rose McGowan is in it. I have loved her for a long time and I am talking before the movie Scream.
I think I am going to find a roommate preferably someone in the same business as me. I can't exactly live with a 9-5er. It's just hard to decide. I lived with people and it was awesome. But I have had more bad experiences than good ones. My place is so big and it would definitely cut down on cost. I could put more money towards school. So far in the four classes I have taken I have three A's and B. I suck at English. I love to write but when I get excited it pours out. People say use Microsoft Word but Word does not catch every mistake. But the roommate thing is still up in the air. Besides who wants to live in Jacksonville.
Well I am done rambling. I hope all you ladies and gents have been well. I miss you all.
Amaya
It's Been Awhile
Yea I know it's been awhile. I did drop off the face of the Earth for awhile it seems. I am still here. It had just been the most hectic past 6 months I have had in awhile. I'm still in Jacksonville. I just live in a new area. So I moved. If I didn't mention it in a previous blog I finally got a car. I got a 2007 Toyota Yarius Sport. It's nice and you can't beat the gas mileage.
I haven't been providing as much but I am slowly getting back into things. I just got burnt out not just from the providing but life in general. It's like everything just caught up with me all at once. I'm trying to build a better life for myself but I seem to encounter obstacle after obstacle.
I have also started online for Medical Billing and Insurance Coding. It's not my first choice but I figured one skill is better than no skill. I'm still young so I still have time to figure out what it is I want to do in the long run. I hope. School has been cake so far. I hope it stays that way even though I'm sure it will only get harder.
The men in my life or the lack there of I am back to being single again. I dated a guy for awhile. He turned out to be jerk. I suppose what can you expect from a recovering alcoholic/addict. Once again I think I can step in and save the world. I call it my Jesus complex. I always pick up guys like that. Except my main man who is not really my man but I love him and he loves me. He takes care of me and has been so supportive so I can't really ask for more than that.
Anyway I just wanted to do a quick update for those wondering if I had died or what not. Ha..no such luck. :)
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